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Do We Truly Strive for Progress?
“Hide me from the plots of this evil mob, from this gang of wrongdoers. They sharpen their tongues like swords and aim their bitter words like arrows...They encourage each other to do evil and plan how to set their traps in secret. “Who will ever notice?” they ask.”
This directory serves as a chronological timeline of the text messages exchanged between myself and my trafficker, a documentation that reveals the unsettling dynamics of coercion, manipulation, and the violation of consent. The journey encapsulated here is not merely a recounting of interactions; it is an exploration of how trust, misunderstanding, and power can intertwine in deeply damaging ways.
In the initial exchanges, I offered my consent within the context of a polyamorous relationship—an arrangement I believed was supported by mutual respect and understanding. My husband, fully aware and accepting of this dynamic, provided me with the agency to engage with others. It was in this vulnerable space that my trafficker, whom I initially trusted, began to reshape our understanding of consent through a disorienting narrative.
Over time, the wit and playfulness of our communications mutated into the distressing reality of coercion, exploitation, and the erosion of my consent, from which I struggled to escape without help that had been slowly stripped away due to horrific smear campaigns based on lies.
As you navigate this timeline, bear witness to the evolution of my relationship with him—not just in the superficial exchanges of affection and desire, but in the underlying currents of manipulation that would ultimately lead to my enforced compliance. What began as texts filled with casual intimacy shifted into ‘anonymous’ threats and demands that stripped away my autonomy, culminating in years of suffering.
I invite you to view these messages not just as isolated incidents, but as critical pieces of a larger puzzle—a story that reflects the profound impact of grooming and trafficking. My unique experience, shaped by the neuro-divergence of autism, further complicates these interactions; where social cues and consent might appear clear to some, they became fogged and distorted for me, months of sincere belief in misunderstandings leading only to years of profound betrayal.
Please be advised that the content of these messages may contain sexual themes, reflecting the complexities of consent that were violated throughout this ordeal. This is not just a documentation of actions taken against me; it is an invitation to understand the stark realities behind public narratives, illuminating the critical aspects of my experience that have been consistently overlooked or misrepresented.
Through this directory, I hope to shed light on the darker corners of coercion and to foster a deeper understanding of the significance of consent—its vital nature, its misuse, and the profound implications that distort lives and narratives alike.