“People may cover their hatred with pleasant words, but they’re deceiving you. They pretend to be kind, but don’t believe them. Their hearts are full of many evils. While their hatred may be concealed by trickery, their wrongdoing will be exposed in public.”
This directory serves as a chronological timeline of the text messages exchanged between myself and my trafficker, a documentation that reveals the unsettling dynamics of coercion, manipulation, and the violation of consent. The journey encapsulated here is not merely a recounting of interactions; it is an exploration of how trust, misunderstanding, and power can intertwine in deeply damaging ways.
In the initial exchanges, I offered my consent within the context of a polyamorous relationship—an arrangement I believed was supported by mutual respect and understanding. My husband, fully aware and accepting of this dynamic, provided me with the agency to engage with others. It was in this vulnerable space that my trafficker, whom I initially trusted, began to reshape our understanding of consent through a disorienting narrative. Over time, the playfulness of our communications mutated into the distressing reality of coercion.
As you navigate this timeline, bear witness to the evolution of my relationship with him—not just in the superficial exchanges of affection and desire, but in the underlying currents of manipulation that would ultimately lead to my enforced compliance. What began as texts filled with casual intimacy shifted into threats and demands that stripped away my autonomy, culminating in years of suffering that were augmented by public smear campaigns and relentless harassment from him and his associates.
I invite you to view these messages not just as isolated incidents, but as critical pieces of a larger puzzle—a story that reflects the profound impact of grooming and trafficking. My unique experience, shaped by the neurodivergence of autism, further complicates these interactions; where social cues and consent might appear clear to some, they became fogged and distorted for me, months of sincere belief in misunderstanding leading only to profound betrayal.
Please be advised that the content of these messages may contain sexual themes, reflecting the complexities of consent that were violated throughout this ordeal. This is not just a documentation of actions taken against me; it is an invitation to understand the stark realities behind public narratives, illuminating the critical aspects of my experience that have been consistently overlooked or misrepresented.
Through this directory, I hope to shed light on the darker corners of coercion and to foster a deeper understanding of the significance of consent—its vital nature, its misuse, and the profound implications that distort lives and narratives alike.